A new resolution for the year...

People come in and out of your life. Some times it's like a gentle ebb and flow of the tide, other times it comes crashing down like a tsunami wave. I was thinking the other day, that we are often sad or angry when people flow out of your life and a lot of emotions surround that act as you think "what did I do? am I not important to them?" all things that you may not want to come to terms with. You never want to believe that you were being used or were a friend out of convenience. Have you ever asked yourself, "Did they fall out of my life because I didn't make the effort?"

I have always had a hard time saying no. It is something that my husband, friends and family have gotten on me about. I think it may be my personality to give. I do get a good feeling out of it and that's why I do it. However, often times than not, I walk away feeling a little used. I know, I know..I put myself in that position so I have only myself to blame...
This year, I am making an effort to change a few things... growing up I suppose!

I want to be the person who appreciates the people in my life who make an effort to be in it. Whether or not I am doing something for them! I understand with the merry-go-round that we are on, it is not always easy or it's hard to find the time for each other. I want to put an effort into those people who make an effort with our relationship, appreciate me as a friend and all that comes with it, to those folks-- I am making a concious effort to tell you I love you. To reach out and spend time with you and be there for you when ever you need me.

Stop being a people pleasure (yikes, that's harder than a atkins dieter sitting in front of a buffet of french fries and donuts)! I want to learn to say no! It is so easy for toddlers to do it, so why can't I? That is a hard one for me, but I am going to try.

To those people who aren't present in this year, in this life: I am going to appreciate and remember all of the good things about you and our time together. I hope there comes a time where we flow back into each other's lives again- until then, enjoy your journey!